Sunday, August 14, 2005

lazy weekend..

this week has been good..finally did my swimming on national day. swam a good 50 laps. had too much stored up energy, haha.

was posted to this company in henderson industrial park and this is by far the best company! good working hours (i knocked off around 7.30pm everyday!) and the clients are very nice ppl. ever since i left the job at tuas, the working conditions seem to have gotten better and better. serangoon was good coz there were hx and ys. when in doubt, we consult one another and we get to knock off around 10+. gonna be at henderson for another 2 more weeks till training starts on 25 aug. definitely looking forward to that 12 days of training coz it will mean normal working hours! of course, there will be a lot of learning too.

i'm looking forward to the next pay day too. really bad at managing my own finances. seriously, i have no idea where all my money went to. didn't buy a lot of clothes though. got a small cardigan and a white sleeveless for work. bought a new pair of heels for casual wear and a black dress for last sat's dnd. oh ya..i did manicure and pedicure and i did french manicure yesteday! god..now that i have listed down wat i have spent on, kinda figured out where all my money disappeared to.
actually, 2nd pay has to come and i'm already in bad debts. finally signed up for fitness first membership and the classes begin on sep. nz had to pay for my admin and joining fees first coz i would be dead broke for the remaining weeks if i had done so myself. joining the club means a monthly membership of 133 bucks. so i better drag my body over to the club eevry weekend and fully utilize thay money.

sometimes, i feel the reason i'm so broke is becoz i gave my mum a huge chunk of my pay. she insisted that i will still have enuff to spend if i dun buy so much stuff. do i really need those stuff? do i know myself best or is an external party better at judging the way i spend? ok, i admit that things like manicure and pedicure are unnecesssarily but becoz i do not know how to take care and shape my own nails, i dun mind paying ppl to do them for me. at the same time, i get to learn from them and in due time, i might be able to do it myself. although i did a lot of shopping in indo and bangkok, i still do not have enuff working clothes. perhaps it was bad shopping at those times, but i wasn't working then and i dun feel good spending so much. and it doesn't mean that when u shop wif an agenda, u will definitely get wat u want. the size, colour and price juz might not fit. and now when i'm earning my own $$, i felt retrained, perplexed and bonded that i can't get to spend on wat i want. i'm not trying to run away from the fact that i have to play a part in supporting the family, i juz want to be in control of my own money. i really dun mind giving her that amount of money, but rite now, i feel that money is in control of me. it decides wat i can spend on, not me who decide how to spend it. i juz dun feel good (safe maybe?) when i have that little amount of money wif me. earning 2k is not a lot. yah.. it's true there are many ppl out there who earn much lesser than me but it's also true that everyone's living and working conditions are different. i want to look good and professional when i'm working. to do that, i need nice clothes, shoes, bags, make-up and even a decent hairdo. read. i'm not saying i need branded stuff. i'm not into gucci, lv or tods stuff. but a decent piece of clothing would cost bet 20-40 bucks. how about a blazar? at least 50. $$ and $$. perhaps i've become more materialistic. but it's a cruel fact which i have learnt. ppl DO judge u by how u look.

Rouge a-hemmed @ 3:08 PM 0 rockers