Monday, February 28, 2005

so near..yet so far..

my heroes..for playing a terrific game
say cheese

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this could have been us...but alas..
say cheese

we were so close to lifting the cup..sighz..but well done guys! u all played well...defensively we did wonderful. good job to jerzy dudek who had stopped so many attempts. no goal was able to go past u..applause to sami hyppia and jamie carrager. u guys were the best central defenders..always on ur toes and ever ready to kick the ball out. u did good too traore, hope ur injury is not serious. and steve finnan too..oh ya, u and carrager look alike!! hahaah..kept mixing u guys up on the pitch..

my hero of the game, actually heroes, gotta be riise, carrager and dudek. riise for scoring that excellent first goal and playing so well in midfield and defence. carrager for those excellent tackles..but dude, need to watch ur temper a bit k..i know some of the chealse players have foul tempers too (i shall not name who). dudek for those excellent saves and punches and that fantastic 2 goals save by gallas and joe cole. man of the match could have been you.

oh man..i still got so many players to thank. hanman u played well..and nearly scoring that goal! garcia, biscan, kewell, morientes, baros, nunez (congrats on ur first goal for liverpool!) and gerrard, dun take it too hard. it was juz...hard luck..i supposed.

thank you guys for playing a great game and making the match a worth watching one..there was great team spirit. u guys played really well..and the come back goal by nunez was superb..it juz showed the never-say-attitude. heads up..and we still have champions league and everton to beat!!!

You'll NEVER WALK ALONE!! i still love LIVERPOOL!!

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Friday, February 25, 2005

at last...

finally i finished wat i'm supposed to do for FYP..which is only for this week =(. well, at least now i can study for my quiz without guilt...and after mon's quiz, then i'll start to piah. hope we can finish the whole project by end of next week.

heard from grace that tix to taiwan costs only $200 by jetstar!!! wow..this is the cheapest i have heard so far..and shihui juz saw from the ads that chan bro are offering $800 for some package..but details not knows yet. hahaha..starting to get excited for the grad trip liao..think i will wnat to stay there for at least 10 days..really need to enjoy myself b4 i enter the working world. if kp they all can't stay for that long, i might stay on myself..or travel to another alone. heh..sounds cool eh? but for now, i'll need to save up. it's hard though, coz keongz' bday is coming soon..though might seem long (it's in april). thinking of getting him a m frame..he has been yearning to have one ever since he lost his during the nus tri..hmm..that means i gotta save around 200-300 and i only got 200 in my bank now! fortunately feb is ending soon..which means..this month i would be able to save around that amount. there goes my savings..haha..and i don't think i'll be able to go back to BM to work as well. heard from jenny that all of them have tendered..so probably he would think i'm leaving like them too. looks like i have to wait till the end of exams, b4 i can get a temp job that pays well and enable me to save up for my taiwan trip! hope he would want to go for a short trip perhaps to bintan wif me...

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

does it pay to be nice to others??

as i sat in front of my com, enjoying my lunch of maggi mee wif veg and tofu (sounds healthy but its maggi!!), i pondered over wat happened last nite.

i was finally going to play mahjong, david organized and invited jessen back from work to play but sadly...when we were about to play, there were no mahjong set!! not even his own one. it happened that his set were being used by ron and ron's were being used by yonxi. wat luck??!?! jzu when we wanna play, everyone is playing!! the sad part is..when he went to ask them where were all the other sets, tehy said slammed the door at him. and the table which he set u[ at taipan, was conveniently being used by them too. haiz...i told him to gte it back from them..coz he has every right to do so..do u think others would be so nice to us if the other way round? perhaps 1 out of 10 ppl. anyway, he felt bad about asking them to return the set and he felt bad for making jessen came back all the way..and for raising my hopes of finally playing mahjong...hahaha..poor chap! feeling wrong for the wrong things...no choice la..he's a nice guy...nvm, we had a fun time playing bridge too! though i sux big time!!!

oh ya..yvonne finally came back last nite. she took part in this pool ompetition and it won;t end till thurs..but we met up for a short while to discuss.alright, at least now we plan when we gonna finish our work..and i bet u..time is gonna be real tight. but well, jzu gonna do my past fast..aiming to complete it by tonite..so i can start studying for my 306 quiz. as for the rest, after quiz then i'll start to worry..have been worrying enuff for the past few days. did i mention that i though maybe yvonne had passed out in her room or something? coz i haven't seen her since sun nite..and i actually woke up rather early on mon morning and i didn't see her too..and we were supposed to meet on mon nite..and she wasn't back yet...hahah..my imagination sure can run wild

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Tuesday, February 22, 2005

blogging in the wee hours

damned moquitoes! can't believe i'm blogging at this hour..not becoz i have something terribly important to write about, but simply becoz i'm awaken from my beauty sleep due to a mosquito attack. yeah..its singular and i believe its the work of juz ONE damned mosquito. how ironical..we were juz talking last nite after our jog, that where huijuan's room is suituated is prone to mosquitoes..and i was proudly declaring that there was none in my room. they muz have heard it..coz now, 1 of them is lurking in room juz to prove me wrong!
ARRRGHHH!!!!
seems that it is fate that i can only sleep not more than 5 hours every nite for this term break...HELP!!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 6:36 AM 2 rockers

Monday, February 21, 2005

another level

bought a red mogu in the shape of a star for keongz..its like a good luck charm b4 his NUS biathlon race..something to boost his morale and i made a card for him too. came out wif a really nice poem..and truthfully, i'm darn proud of myself. here it is..

No matter what happens tomorrow,
You will always be my SUPERSTAR, the one who trains religiously, ran his first Marathon, completes his first Triathlon, and i look forward to the day where you complete your first IRONMAN.

No matter how lost i am,
You will always be my GUIDING STAR, the one who teaches me the way, shows me the way, and lights up my path.

No matter how unromantic you are,
You will always be my HONEYSTAR, the one who showers me with love, cares for me and treats me like a STAR.

No matter whatever,
You will always be my NUMBER ONE STAR,
the one and only star in my sky.

sweet rite? heh..so after i spent my day opening an a/c at uob, rushed to orchard to get the mogu, went visiting at my uncle's place, i dropped by at his place around afternoon wif his prezzie and 3 episodes of OC.

we spent the remaining afternoon watching the drama..and went over to parkway for a simple dinner. strangely..things didn't turn out that well.

i invited him to take part in the X-physique..wif me..but as usual, i anticipated his negative reply but was still hoping that he will be interested in the race. and he said something over dinner which upsetted me quite a bit.

him: are u sure u are up to it?
silence...
him: are you okie?
me: yeah..juz thinking about some stuff..need to reorganize my thoughts.
him: u know wat..u shouldn't take wat i said too seriously.
me: then maybe you should think carefully first before u speak.

i think i sort of snapped the last line at him. but i was really hurt.

me: maybe u haven't seen me done certain things b4..or maybe you have seen me done certain things not too well..but sometimes i think u r undermining my abilities.

and wat happens juz reminded me about how i feel towards ****...ever since our 2nd breakup, i have always feel inferior to her. i'm not smarter than her, not prettier than her, not as atheletic as her...and it was a big blow to me that he was a little interested in her at that time.at least that was wat i felt. but anyway, that was history. for the past 2 years..i've straightened out my thoughts. why should i be jealous or even feel inferior towards her? i have him and she doesn't...and please..she doesn't even like him. and wat kp said is true..i have been wif him for close to 7 years...there muz be certain things he likes about me...if not, how can we be togther for so many years?

i wanted to tell him that..but was afraid that it might affect his race. he walked me to the bus stop;

him: do u find me bored?
me: no..in fact, i can take it if i have to spend every single day wif you. but u can't rite?
both: hahaha

me: actually...ever since last yr's jan..my 21st bday, i felt that we have moved on to another level. wat u did for my bday, letting me into ur life, introducing ur frenz like alvin and wayne to me, sharing ur dreams wif me.

in fact, ever since that jan, i felt more loved than b4. maybe the word is reassured. i know that he really loves and care for me..ya..he's not that expressive kind..but precisely coz he's not the expressive kind, so little things and actions by him, means a lot to me. and even though sometimes he doesn't care about me explictly that much, but i know he loves me deep inside his heart. like wed nite, he waited till 2+ am in the morning..juz to make sure i was back safely from my run. i felt really bad...but was tremendously touched.

but i yearn for the day where we can try out new stuff..do new things together. i'm not using these stuff to bring our relationship into another level and i'm not saying we have to do these stuff in order to advance to another stage. and yes, we can do without all these...but doing stuff together juz mean something else to me...doing things together will make us feel closer and more bonder...of course, i can take it if we do stuff differently, play diff sports and feel passionate about diff stuff. i can also feel closer to him by juz being a supporter..but it is better to share the same interests.

anyway...come to think about it. we don;t realy have a lot of common interests..but hey..we have been together for 6+ years...so it certainly is fine. maybe i'm asking too much..maybe he is juz not ready..

but no worries..he held me and i gave him a peck b4 i board the bus. so all is well...and he's satisfied about his race today...though results are still not out yet.

Rouge a-hemmed @ 12:00 AM 0 rockers

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day!!

as i told darling, of all the holidays and festivals which we celebrated, i feel vday is the least important. he feels the same too..its da day where capitalists strike!! heh heh..i thought that was funny. but still, we celebrated vday like how other couples do. we had an advanced celebration on sat..dinner at Minolli, this new italian restaurant which wayne recommended. pasta was supposed to be good..but the dumbass me, was overly attracted to the scallop and mushroom and i ordered some pasta that tasted like ba chou mee! sobz :( but the chicken and mushroom was fantabulous! i wasn't the only one that was conned by the scallop thingie..the 2 tables beside us ordered the same dish!! hahaahah..when we were almost done, the table beside us ordered some biscuits coated wif salmon! darling and me were green wif envy. nvm, the next time we go there, we gonna order some real food. we have finally found the resturant that belongs to the both of us. and cedele is the cafe juz for us.

was late for an hour and darling was quite mad wif me. earlier on during training, his captain was late for 1+ hour and he felt tat was super irresponsible of him. i felt guilty..actually wanted to leave the house early to get the mogu cushion for him. but alas..the lazy me refused to get my ass off the couch. i'll get it over the weekend and deliver it over to his place..as a good luck charm for his sun's race- NUS triathlon aka IVP race. he's hoping to do a PB, esp for his swim. u can do it, darling!!

chinese new year was great but this yr, ang pao $$ seemed much lesser..maybe coz i have to set aside $200 to return darling for the mp3player...and some for my allowance. seems like my plan to save ang pao $$ for my grad trip is not possible. seemed to have gained a few pounds over this festive period. my tighs are getting bigger...arms are getting flabby...and ny tummy bigger too...haiz...think i'm juz not determined enuff. when will i regain back my waist 25??

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Monday, February 07, 2005

so done wif cny shopping!!

yeah..i'm officially broke..left $90 bucks in my bank..though my mama gave me allowance and i received my tution pay...but i think they underpaid me...so i'm gonna check later...

to summarize, my CHINESE NEW SHOPPING GOODIES:
1. levi's jean (courtesy of baby, my bday prezzie from him!!)
2. fox kaki shorts (intending to wear this on the 1st day of cny sincy relatives
are coming over)
3. shibuya pink tube top (will be matching this wif my jeans)
4. black bossini tube top (baby is so mad at me for getting a med size...he feels its
too over size)
5. surf bay red funky pants (so retro looking...hahaha)
6. 2 giordano racer back tank tops (gonna match this wif my shorts and pants and my
item no. 7!!)
7. balletrina shoes (from bugis village)
8. samung E600c hp
9. creative mP3 player (vday present from baby!!)

hahaha..think i spent close to $500 for the past 2 weekends..jzu that i haven't returned baby his money...and i'm intending to open a uob campus acc..so many priviledges!!! and i want the visa min!!!

alrite..think no more shopping for at least a month?? hmm..maybe a few more tops..i so need to change my wardrobe!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:59 PM 0 rockers

my long awaited samsung E600C..finally!! and my mp3 player from darling..vday prezzie!!
say cheese

got the phone by signing a new contract wif starhub. powervalue 100 $25.20 per month wif all incoming call free and 100 mins free outing calls and 500 sms. good enuff for me though quite little sms...gonna cancel the m1 line soon...the phone costs $148 wif the plan..cheap rite? its cost 243 over at singtel and m1!

and the mp3 player is my vday gift from keongz!! and i bought him one too...the exact one..heh heh..so this yr we have same vday presents...except that i din exactly paid for his yet..gonna safeguard his $$ in my a/c first...heh too broke after the new hp and cny shopping..can;t wait for chinese new year!! or should i say ang pao $$ =P

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:54 PM 0 rockers

i love the funky red pants!! though keongz said it looks ugly..
say cheese

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:53 PM 0 rockers

my marissa-looking skirt
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finally i have one of this..haha..now i'm one of those marissa wanna bes...was afraid that the fashion's gonna die off soon...but keongz told me not yet..since channel 5 have yet to show season 2. true...realise i dun really have nice legs for the skirt...but darling beg to differ..he loves to see me wear the skirt...i was parading my cny clothes for him on sat nite...apparently, the skirt kinda turn him on....heheh...wanted to buy those long flowy- bohemian's like skirt instead..but again, darling feel those are meant for stick-long figure aka known skinny-pok..which obviously ur lady down here is not..but i do hope to be skinny soon...i'm dying for a flat stomach wif abs and toned arms!!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:51 PM 0 rockers

balletrina shoes??!!? can't imagine me wearing this kind rite?
say cheese

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:50 PM 0 rockers

new wallet
say cheese

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:05 PM 0 rockers
as promised, this is my bday prezzie from sk, sh, kp and bao. its from the same design as the one i bought for keongz for xmas

was very happy to receive it..coz i really needed a new wallet...no longer a small girl anymore so time to use a real wallet..not that i can't use purses, juz that its time to have a real femine wallet which i bring out for all occasions! very thoughtful of sk and sh to pick a similar design as the one i bought for keong. and darling was so sweet to tell them wat i need...he could have gotten a wallet himself for my bday


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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

my birthday!

was really looking forward to it..coz i'll finally be meeting keongz after 3 weeks! but i was down wif flu..so shao xing! anyway, the nite b4..or rather 12+ in the morning on my birthday, shihui, marilyn, seok leng, zeli, david, weisheng, melvin and zhonghui celebrated my bday for me..tehy bought a supposed to be tiramisu cake for me..kanna conned by the confectionary auntie..haha..it tasted jzu like coffee cake...hahaha..took quite some phoros..will post it up when i get them from mr moleman...

didn't feel too well after that..maybe due too much froglegs? b4 that, i met up wif jeanette and lionel. they bought me dinner..think it was supposed to be a jc class outing to celebrate my birthday.but turned out that only the both of them were free...actually i wasn;t expecting anything from them..so i was rather touched that jeanette took the trouble to organize. was hoping to get a present, but it was juz a dinner treat. good enough though..jean gave me a birday bear..the one from meiji which they produced one everyday. so its a special bear for every single day. its meaningful though not ex. thanx! =)

had a hard time tryingt o survive thru the day. didn't feel like going for 304 coz i din prepare for tut...and as for tax, if there wasn't presentation, prob won't go...but in the end, the 1st 5 groups took so bloody long and all our brain cells were depleting. so moira decided to let us off early and continue the next lesson. so i happily made my way to meet keong...=P

reached city hall early..so shopped around alone. saw a few mango tops which looked really good on the mannequin. but alas, i juz dun have the boobs for it. hahahah...

finally, keong came. he said i looked nice...and my hair looks so much better..and cool! whahahah...i missed him. btu like i told him, there was too much to do on fri nite and sat afternoon..so much that i realised i have a lot of stuff which i haven;t told him about. anyway, we should be meeting again this week..he's supposed to come shopping wif me!! haha..coz sat he has to go abck to vs to settle soome scouts thing..

he bought me a pair pf levi's jeans as my birthday present. chose and tried it that day..though no element of surprise, but i finally gotten a pari of levi's jeans..and its from him. so everytime i wear it, i'll feel extra warmth and love..heh

we spent the nite watching oc...and i was sneezing away most of the time. it really amazed me to see how much he enjoyed watching oc. he was laughing so loudly and i could even hear it from his sis room..when i was typing my 304 report. he simply loved the show.

he called me this morning out of the blue. and i was happy to hear his voice. guess my voice sounded excited and thrilled. sometimes i wonder do i love him more than he loves me? but right now, its doesn't realy matter coz i know that he loves me. whether izzit his more or me more, i guess love can't really be measured. if we really wnat to get down to the numbers, our relationships gonna be miserable. there was a period where i sort of doubted how much he love or treasure me. but one incident changed it all. when i saw the amount of effort and $$ he spent for my 21st birthday, i was touched and i truly believe that i have made the right choice. he does love me..even as much as me..maybe at times even more than i love him. its juz that he's not the showy kind. so he doesn't display affections publicly and at times, he placed studies n training right above me coz they r jzu the right thing to do. placing them above me doesn't mean i'm not importang at all, its jzu that there's always a time to do certain things. i understand and i respect his self discipline and determination. if we have been too leechy and sticky, probably we won;t come so far. certainly, there are occassions where i feel like spending more time wif him. time really flies when i'm wif him and they r jzu not enuff. even slacking around him feels good.

he was at sim lim today...and he's getting the mp3 player for me!! haha..not free la..i;m paying for his and he;s paying for mine..so no diff!! haha..but it's a vday gift from each of us!! liek i told him, though the mp3 player is not a need, i was really happy when he told me he's getting for me. don;t know why..but juz plain happy and excited. coz its a gift from him? coz we gonna have the same mp3 player? don't know why..but so sweetly happy...


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