Thursday, March 31, 2005

*knock knock* sounds hollow

sometimes i really question the amount of accounting knowledge in my head..dun have a good feeling of me being an auditor or accountant. juz feel that i am not knowledgable enuff to be a professional.

got back my quiz results for aa306. surprised, shocked and sad are the 3 words tat describe my emotions. got F for quiz 1 and D for quiz 2. thought i could at least pass my quiz 1..u know like a D or something. then quiz 2 was expecting to flunk it but i moderately passed. damn! so out of a total of 25%, think i only managed to score 10..that is if they r generous! sobz..feeling insecured now..for the first time, i am actually worried that i might not be able to graduate on time. i know i didn't put in enuff efforts for these 2 quizzes..but..there was still this tinge of hope..coz SERIOUSLY, i put in more time for quiz 1! heck..no time to worry...better start mugging soon..finally planned out my revision timetable..and god..time is running out!! i dun want to hug buddha's leg again..so..TAY EILEEN, STOP BEING A LARDBALL AND WAKE UP UR DAMN BLOODY IDEAS!!!

alright..think i'm slightly sober to continue wif the rest of the blog. heh..
went to ikea wif jean on tue..had a nice little lunch there and shopped around. she bought a quilt and cover, and i saw this light orangey peach cover wif many many suns on it..felt tempted to buy..but prevented myself from impulsive buying again. need to save money for dearie's bday present. *scratch* still have no idea wat to get him. i have la..but not enuff $$..shit..think i am gonna buy him all the wrong things again..arrghhh...

we really pig out at ikea..coz after the shopping, juz b4 we left for queensway, we bought hotdog! haha..fortunately, the weather was kind to us and we managed to swim over at nus. no offence, but i muz say, ntu's pool is definitely cleaner. perhaps nus's is older and the tiles are more stained, so it felt not as clean as the ntu's. okie, i should prob shut my mouth. so why did i go over to nus n swim where ntu has a much nicer pool? planning to stay over at jean's hall and we wanted to lose some weight..so..swim la.

haha..bumped into dearie at the pool. not exactly bumped since i knew he's gonna be there. he was training wif his frenz. but it was really weird. he was standing on the grandstand talking to his 2 frenz, and in order for us to get to our stuff, we have to walk past him. but i was embarassed to go up to him and his frenz in my swimming costume. so..we were like dodging him..haha...and we walked as far as possible from the grandstand. but still not very far, prob around 3 metres?? and true enuff, he was too engrossed in his conversation and he didn't even noticed us walking past him! after we reached the spot where we put our stuff, he finally saw us and came over. heh, i was excited to see him, though i think i didn't look that way. dunno why i am behaving weirdly...mayb i'm juz shy? haha..my goodnes..he came over to jean's room for dinner. we cooked maggi me. he looked tired coz after the swim, he went to run 10km again. and he was carrying an extremely heavy bag (feels like a bag of gold), filled wif his notes, paddle, clothes and lappie.

after he left, me and jean talked. it has been a long time since we really talk. u know, quality kind of conversation. think the last time we really had one of these talks was b4 we entered uni. then both of us were too caught up in our own life. later, we walked over to eusoff hall to look for sharon and we went over to fong seng to for supper. pig again! hahaha...

we were so tired when we finally reached back jean's room. it was really quite a distance from sharon's hall to hers. but the good thing is, she finally was able to sleep. we shared the same bed. kinky eh, haha. but nothing happen la except that i suffered a series of mosquitoes attacks! first, they stung my right hand. *scratch* couldn't take it anymore, i flipped and slept face down instead. was able to get some sleep but...they stung my left leg! arrghh!!! so i tossed and turned..think i got immuned to it..coz i still managed to sleep in the end. haha...

it was cool catching up wif my girlfriends. miss them actually. finally now that i have no more committee work, no more fyp, so it means more time for myself and him and my frenz. haha, he would rather i have less time for him..heh so he can go mug and train..haha..but i still know that he misses me..
"never talk about u doesn't mean i am not thinking about u"
this is wat he told me on sun. a lot of his frenz asked him why didn't he mention or talk about his gf. i guess we r not the typical kind of couple. we are actually quite slow...close frenz will know wat i mean..hahaha..and dun show PDA (Public Display of Affection) when we r wif our frenz. so considerate of us..haha..god, i'm missing him already...have to wait till after my exams b4 i can meet him. 4th may! so long...sighz...he's online! heh..

hanny is coming to spore next week. will be meeting up wif her. she's one of those babes whom i haven't been catching up wif...miss her :(

Rouge a-hemmed @ 6:06 PM 0 rockers

Monday, March 28, 2005

responsibility relationship

in accounting, we learn about responsibility accounting meaning that we only evaluate manager's performance based on wat they can control, not wat they can't.
one of my chums juz suffered a break-up wif her bf of 1.5 years. though she was the one who initiated it, it doesn't mean that she's much happier. she is having a terrible time trying to accustom her life without that someone who was once so important to her. and there's another chum who is treading on very thin waters wif her bf. being together for 2 years, and is starting to question herself, "where can we go from here? i don't see the both of us leading a life in future." is this the cruelities of life or it's juz human nature that after being together for a long (more than 1 year) time, we start to find faults wif the other and thus, find the whole relationship boring and bland?

to be in a relationship, both parties need to be responsible and accountable to each other. wat exactly do we mean by responsible? this is rather similar to responsibility accounting (i'm sure some would find it ridiculous). how well the relationship works out really depends on both parties, wat they do to make the r/s tick and how well they control it. some might beg to differ..why do we need to control in a r/s? r/s is all about love and love is about feelings..we should let it flow naturally.

if u really like that person, u would want to be accountable to him or her, thus u have to be responsible for ur actions. and to be responsible, soemtimes we need to exert a little bit of self control. take for instance, u have been in a r/s for 1 year, have been to all sorts of dating places, meet the parents, gone travelling together and is starting to find shopping, watching movie a boring routine, saw and knew this another guy or girl, who may be really gorgeous or juz a plain-jane, had lotsa common topics to talk about, found him or her interesting and u found urself really attracted to him or her. so u begin to not feel for ur present half or tell urself u have no more feelings for him or her. personally, i feel this is where the whole control comes in. if u really do like or i prefer to use love (since it is a stronger feeling) ur present half, u would exert some self control and and prevent urself from falling in love wif this new person. it's not ridiculous..some might say how do we prevent it? it's love at first sight? rubbish!!! if u were single, of course u r entirely allowed to go after that person. but if u r not and still love ur present half, u could and should distant urself from that person. dun come into contact wif him or her so often. and u could at least try to ignite some spark back into ur r/s. it's never too late to try...i'm sure many would disagree wif me...but imagine when u r married next time, 10 years down the road, u find ur wife or hubby a bore. so wat u gonna do? have an extra-marital affair? or file for divorce? and leave ur poor kids wif no papa or mama?

i know i might have sounded too strong on the above issue..but this is wat i feel a r/s is about. might seem too serious to some of u guys..'hey chill it man, it's juz a bgr, i'm not plannning to marry him or her!' then think twice b4 entering in a r/s, u will end up hurting the other party and one day...urself.

mayb i'm juz lucky to have a bf who understands me and is willing to try and strive hard in this r/s wif me..or perhaps he is struggling wif it...as the saying goes, it takes 2 hands to clap. and so does it in a r/s. it needs both parties to work hard together...rem after every bend, there's gonna be a sraight road ahead. no doubt it may seem tough now, but we would surely enjoy the moments when we see him or her smiles..a smile tat will melt ur heart and gives u the extra strength to carry on...

26th march
went to support dearie and kp at the spore biathlon. he didn't do so well this time but he has learnt to face the disappointment. seems like he has move on to another level in his life..this would certainly make him not be so hard on himself when he becomes the captain of the team.

i remembered when i went to support him at the nus tri, osim tri and std chartered marathon, i felt inspired by him and many of those who took part and completed the races. but this time, when i saw my fren completed it, i felt a little sad. i think it might have been because 'since kp can do it, why can't i do it?' i might be feeling the pressure of not sharing a common interest wif him. this is not the first time i'm experiencing it. perhaps it's feeling more real coz one of my chums juz did it..and it seemed effortless to her. but i have to remind myself she used to be both a swimmer and cross country runner. whereas me, i'm juz a girl guide. of course, i have learnt many lessons of life throughtout my 4 guiding years =)

congrats kp for doing well! i'm proud of u!!! i really wish i could be like u...then perhaps me and dearie can spend more time together. but i have learn to accept it, the joy which we couldn't share in trainings, could be shared when i welcome u at the finishing line or when watching oc together =) did i mention that i intend to take part in the nike 10km run and prob the quarter marathon at the end of the year? i hope i am not trying too hard (i will only know after i try it), but rather trying to find some meaningful things to do in life. i don't deny that taking part in the race is due partly becoz of him, but it's also for myself. for myself to feel closer to him, for myself to look better (not so fat) and to feel good about myself (the endorphins!!) once i start my working life, i would need to find more meaningful stuff to do besides auditing and aiming for promotions. would give it some more thought once i'm done wif my exams. for now, it's mugging time!!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 8:48 PM 0 rockers

Friday, March 25, 2005

confused?!?!

am feeling kinda upset about the way a close friend (well, this is how i termed our level of friendship)is treating me now. bear in mind that the word i used is upset, not pissed. which means that..i have kinda given up hope, immune and no longer care about it anymore.

initially, i thought maybe it's becoz i haven't been talking and spending time wif it. so u know..maybe it thought that i was ignoring it. so it decided to ignore me as well. there were a couple of incidents when it was having fun wif its frenz, i was present and in fact, part of the fun. but it never spoke a word to me, which was so unlikely it. so nvm, maybe it was really angry or pissed wif me wif regard to some incident. so i assumed..maybe it was really MY FAULT!

then one nite, it sent me a ppt thru msn. it's a message about hardwork, attitude and intelligence, u know, one of those motivating messages and the message ended off by saying, 'send this to frenz whom u care about' okie, so now i thought all those stuff about me thinking it was angry, pissed wif me were juz my overactions. everything was still fine between us, and mayb at those few incidents, it was too engrossed in its fun or it juz has nothing to say to me. and so, i replied its msn, and we started chatting. the conversation was cool and as per normal. so i concluded that it was juz me and my own bizarre way of thinking.

unfortunately, it treated me coldly, as though i wasn't present at one of those fun events again. hey, wat's wrong? then it called me but i was away. i called back, it sounded hostile and said it wasn't it that was looking for me but someone else. and later on, i called back its hp to look for that someone, or rather, i was asking it to pass a msg to that someone that i couldn't make it anymore. be brushed me off hastily and hung up on me. alrite, maybe it was really too engrossed in its fun activities.

finally, i msned it this evening, determined to find out wat was really wrong bet us. becoz this time, i'm totally clueless! the last time we had one of those cold wars where i ignored it for a couple of weeks coz i was really pissed wif him. but u see, there was a reason why i felt that way. but this time, i really don't know the reason why it was treating me weirdly! perhaps everything is fine, its juz me and my reactions, or mayb there is really a prob.

i took the initiative and msned it.

me: hey, u free now?
it: ya..
me: no la, jzu felt that we haven't been talking recently.
it: so u wanna go for dinner together?
me: i juz ate, was too hungry.
(when i went to buy my dinner, i actually knew that it was online. but i didn't want to msn it to invite it for dinner. didn't want it to think that i'm asking it for dinner coz i have no one to eat wif me. u know, like making use of it or when i need help then i'll look for it.)
it: this weekend so boring, nothing to watch on tv
me: then u could go out wif ur bf/gf..
it: u wnat to tell me about ur dentist?
me: nope..already found out wat i want to know.
(it thought that i msned it coz i want to share wif it about my dental appt. since it talked to me normally thru msn, i thought there was nothing wrong bet us. it was jzu me and my imaginations. that's why i wrote already found out wat i want to know)

so..from the above msn conversation, i concluded that everything is a OK between us! but...he treated me transparent again tonite, at one of those fun events. me and another fren juz popped by to inform him and another fren about some stuff. (there were other ppl present as well). but, none of them was listening to wat i was saying. even my fren was pissed by their responses. he was so amazed that i could still continue to rattle on and on...actually i'm impressed by my own tolerance level too.

this juz meant one thing to me. i am immuned to its reactions! well, i have already done my part as a fren. from now on, i am not going to let this issue bother me anymore. unless it speak to me first, i shan't not have any form of contact wif it! u can call it pettiness or watever, it has reached a limit until i can't even be bother to do something about it. hence, feeling immune!

next, move on to a slightly more exciting piece of news, i went to visit the dentist today! not to clean my teeth, but the possibility of putting braces!hahaha..took xrays and some teeth moulds thingie. cost me a total of 110 bucks! was quite satisfied wif the dentist and his nurses. they were all so nice and patient. i feel really secure to do my braces there. at first, i was hesitant coz he charges really low. bet 2-3k as compared to 3-4k which is suppposedly the norm. so i thought since he charges so low, maybe the std and his services ain't tat good. i actually had booked otehr appointments wif another 2 dentists at orchard and parkmall. but after this visit, i cancelled away those appointments as i was quite sure my braces will be done wif this dentist.

amazing facts: 1. i have a missing middle tooth at the lower set of my teeth! maybe i was born without it or it could be half grown n stuck in the gum such that it couldn't be seen visibly. was kinda worried that it would affect my braces. wat if after i put the brackets, it juz pop up?? but he said no issue as he has ways to deal wif it. more info could only be known when i come for my next consultation.
2. one of my lower gums is wearing off coz i brush my teeth too hard! he told me i'm gonna be in trouble once when its gone coz the food which i eat would get stuck there! god, i was so worried. so..juz dun brush too hard.

hahahh..really excited about this braces thingie. most prob gonna put it after my exams. i am afraid tat the uneasiness and pain caused by the brackets would affect my revision for the exams. better not risk it. dearie was very excited when i told him that i have decided to put braces. he had been hoping for a long time..but i always tell him that its expensive and i got no time ( i was really busy the last 2 years, jcrc and hall stuff)...hahah..spoke to my papa, he gave me the green light but he hasn't know about today's dental appointment yet. shall tell him when i'm back home tom. need to discuss wif him about the downpayment and the remaining sum, which i would pay it myself once i start work.

looking forward to sat..when i will be going down to east coast to support him and kp! jia you!!!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 5:16 AM 0 rockers

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

endorphins NEEDED!!

finally pulled my lazy arse off the bed and went for a 20 mins jog..felt really strong at the beginning esp up the cs slope..but towards the end, the jelly legs could carry me no more. the pace became slower and slower...was it the result of less exercise or unhealthy diet? super unfit now..

figured that i desperately need some endorphins to perk up the rest of my week! arrgghhhh...*moans* and *moans* again...juz had a quiz today, doesn't seem too goog though i studied harder for this one..and there's another quiz next mon too...this i need to study hard x 10! better start studying tom so that i can enjoy the whole of sat! will be going down to support him for his spore bi race and kp is taking part too!! after that, gonna spend some quality time wif him. not that we haven't been spending time together (the more the merrier =)), but we better grab as much time as possible together since da exams are drawing nearer. by then, we'll be quarantine at our respective mugging corners because we can't really study together..we end up studying each other! ha! but hey, i still it's possible..we juz need to be FOCUS!

cut my index finger today while opening a can of braised peanuts. boy! it was painful. the cut was darn deep..i could see the tissue or nerve or watever u call it from the wound. blood was dripping everywhere in my room and it wouldn't stop bleeding even though i pressed against the wound for like a hour. while changing the dressing juz now during dinner, it was still bleeding! =( i hereby proclaim this to be the 2nd scar on my fingers..one on my left fourth finger and this on my right index.

i wanna go taiwan for my grad trip!! please...i hope all 5 of us can make it..

Rouge a-hemmed @ 2:20 AM 0 rockers

Sunday, March 20, 2005

the truth

sat was boring as usual..it was spent playing 1 round of mahjong (won 8 bucks), printing notes and napping!! arrghh..lardball sure knows how to waste her time away. buttt...it became meaningful when i was allowed to go over to his place to study. (he had a quiz this coming wed and my presence there would prob hinder him from focusing..heh)
met him at clementi after he visted a fren at nuh. his fren got zham at the thighs while playing soccer..thigh bone got broken *ouch!* sounded really badddd...

knowing that i haven't eaten my dinner, he bought mac's beef wrap for me!! =) sweet rite? ate it on the bus ride home..i mean his house..certainly a frutiful bus ride for him as i shared wif him wat i experienced and went thru for the week. and..i told him..about the issue which was bugging me for nitez!! he was grinning..and exclaimed that he's still the world's best bf! haha..of course..at least to me =P he wasn't angry..or upset..phew! so glad that i didn't do anything that would hurt him..

randomly selected and rewatched one of the episodes of SATC on fri nite,
"let's not pretend to be something we are not"
this phrase strikes me hard. i thought about the stuff that had happened..realised i'm not really a platform person. true that moments of attention are fun and flattering..but i supposed those type of moments don't belong to my league. well, at least now i experienced it b4 and realised it's not my cup of tea.

some of u might think i'm making a mountain out of a molehill..but this incident and phrase juz made me ponder about the present me. am i pretending to be happy? pretending to like this person/fren when actually i think he/she is a total bastard or bitch? i hate hypocrites..and lying. but someone once told me, to survive in the real world, one need to learn how to be a hypocrite and tell the white lies..the world doesn't revolve juz around us..we need to learn how to adapt to the constantly changing environment in order to survive. it's a dog eat dog world outside..and it's sad to learn tat wat that someone juz told u may not be the truth at all! so artificial and fake..=(

he once told me tat i'm too naive and i believe wat ppl told me at face value. i agree..but it's so tiring to be critical of everything. i prefer to be the simple-minded me..without hidden agendas and motives..assumption that everyone else around are nice and real..but often then not, i'm proven wrong..

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:03 AM 0 rockers

Saturday, March 19, 2005

so much for a week..

kinda sad that i'm stuck in hall on a sat afternoon..sitting in front of my com and blogging while waiting for my porridge to be cooked. this time round, i chose to stay back in hall over the weekend, in preparation for this coming tut's 304 quiz. of course, i can always go back home and mug..but i figured i'll probably be glued in front of the tv 24-7. and it's also time to consolidate and prepare all my notes and draw up a examination plan. so much time has been spent on fyp such that all my tut work have been in a mess. very lost for 306 and tax..haiz..guess this is the weekend much needed for me to come to terms wif my own studious self once again.

at the exact same time last sat, me and von were happily printing our final report for fyp. spent $20 in printing...thank god there were 3 of us to cover the cost, can't imagine how the engine students feel.when we got back to hall, it was a mad rush but a happy one =) need to bathe, pack my stuff and doll myself up for my buddy's wedding. sat on the train from one end of spre to the other --> boon lay to pasir ris!! the wedding was held at ananda country club.

it was glad meeting up wif old frenz..my previous colleagues at giordano. sad to say, all of them had already left the company. one working as an art teacher, one at soo kee, one at courts, one as logistics officer and the bride herself is happily shaking leg at home. hahaha..

fyi the bride is the same age as me!! kinda young to get married @ 22 eh?
'we r both ready to settle down' that's the reason given by her. so wat exactly do we mean by ready? financially ready? enuff $$ to get a house? emotionally ready to spend the remaining part of ur life wif another person? we all know that it's not that easy to factor someone else into our lives..but life is all about a gamble. but of course, u can do enuff homework and preparation to make sure that u do not suffer loss. u never know the results or consequences until u take a step out of ur own comfort zone. who knows, the rewards may be plentiful. but i admire her for her courage..CONGRATS!!

the next day was spent slacking at home, watching tv and catching up on my beauty sleep. back in hall on sun nite and this marked the start of my drama marathon!!

first, i watched mallpisode, followed by my 20 episodes korean drama- days in bali. i have actually watched that on scv b4 but missed a couple of episodes. so i spent 32.90 and bought the entire series. crazy rite? and i skipped my 306 class juz to complete watching it!! arrgghhh..jo in sung is soo cute!!! hahaha...and ha ji won too..so prettty..but it ended sadly..some might say..wat's new? korean dramas always have sad endings..but this one is diff..it's not the typical one where evil stepsister and step mom torture the poor girl or where the protagonist contracted some terminal disease. this is about sacrificing for love..for more info..look for me and i'll gladly lend you my vcds..trying to make my buy a worthwile one...hahaha

wed nite was spent clubbing wif the girls. it was fun...and for the first time, i actually danced on a platform (that was becoz i was terribly high!!) and guess wat? i puked on the bar!! yucks!!! but it's juz a gulp la..not one huge puddle..but still, so ungracious. i'm not going back to double o for at least the next 3 months!! too embarrassed to face the bartender. he has to clear away the puke!

tat nite, i realised that i am someone wif high level of self control. it was supposed to be a nite of fun..getting high and dancing away..but i was unable to bring myself to dance wif other guys. we all know that wat happens in the club stays in the club..but as i watched my girlfriends dancing away wif other guys, a part of me wanna try and experience how it feels, but there's this holding voice inside me...which kinda stopped me from doing it. 'go and have some fun!! and for once stop thinking about XXX!!' there was this instance where i was dancing wif this guy at zouk..but after like 10s? i turned my back to him. it was juz weird being at such a close proximity wif a guy who was not my bf and i dun even know him!! i'm amazed at my own threshold level..rem, i was high..very high!! i drank 9 breezer shooters, 1 vodka redbull, 1 vodka orange and 2 vodka cranberries.

i'm definitely not judging my frenz for their actions..they certainly were aware and responsible for their own actions. afterall, it was supposed to be a nite of fun. it's juz that...i'm wondering why am i not able to do wat they r doing? why was that inner voice and force so strong? perhaps i'm juz too serious a person...maybe too timid of bumping into familiar faces? this issue bugged me for a few nitez..and truthfully, i felt guilty for that 10s of dancing wif a stranger. and i'm thinking how should i tell him...wonder what will his reactions be...maybe i shouldn't even let him know...haha *sneaky*

thurs afternoon was spent tanning wif jean at sentosa..though it was short, but it was surely fun!! after which, i decided to pamper myself by having my eyebrows plucked by professionals! felt really good..though painful. why muz i pay to make myself suffer? guess this is the price of vanity.

final yr nite was cool..very much better than what we did last yr..*applause to shui cai and company* we could see that much effort has been put in, the videos, personalised gifts etc. and i haven't seen a good geyao performance for a long time!! kudos to the singers and keyboardist!! as usual, memories of my 2.5 years in hall flashed thru my mind..esp when we were watching the last video clip...it's all coming to an end..a little too soon though..and time to face the challenges out in the working world..

Rouge a-hemmed @ 1:33 PM 0 rockers

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

ZONKED OUT!!

mood: dazed....

it's tue and sat is the DEADLINE for FYP..theoretically..but since the office is close on sat..we have to hand up on FRI!! dun hand up by then and we'll be dead..

last week was horrendous.i slept at around 7 plus every morning and i skipped all my lessons on fri. the first time i skipped lesson!! hahaha..but for this sem only la..heh heh

i'm suffering from the aftermath of late nite fyping...such that this week..i'm totally zonked out. wanted to go for yesterday's 8.30 lec..told weisheng to wake me up. but even his heavy knockings on my door failed to wake me up!! and something damn wrong wif my hp...he called but it was off..but i din off it!! maybe god wants me to sleep longer...for the battle ahead...

finally done wif my part of the report for the analysis. and i jzu did my endnote..which means now i'm gonna start preparing some of the appendixes while von is editing...think i should have time to prepare for tom's tut.

even though i'm actually quite a last min worker..but this time round, i was really worried..last week was still on a high mood..coz, truthfully, i kinda enjoy doing fyp. weird rite? but then..alas..it burst..sun nite was terrible. juz when we thought everything was fine..and we could start writing our analysis, some things have to happen. we realised i typed in one of the figures wrongly and this affected the regression results..and the reasons for separating the sample period were not that right...thankfully the first few days of my week r my free days..at least can piah. beginning to feel more at ease now...

hmm..promised bao n kp to go clubbing tom...but fyp like not done yet..should i?

Rouge a-hemmed @ 2:37 PM 0 rockers

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

seth and summer are back together!!

i think i'm going crazy..i juz watched episode 14 of the oc- the rainy day women for the 2nd time within a span of 24 hours!!! but this is a really good episode..truly enjoyed it though it was really sad that linday is leaving ryan. i muz say that producers or scriptwriters are darn good. juz when i found the whole plot a little bit dry..esp the part when marissa and alex got together even though i'm sure most guys will find it err..HOT! imagine 2 girls kissing!! well, all i can say is..i'm not a lesbian =) oh yah..back to the whole story getting dull..they fixed seth and summer back together!! this gotta be my fave episode of season 2!! my 2nd fave one is the episode on chrismukka that almost wasn't. loved the music, the decorations and the drama in that one.

and i thought that lindsay gonna stay in the show for long...seems like she's similar to anna...for all those who din watch oc..she's the character whom seth was in love wif, but not as madly as he was wif summer and who left in season 1. so happy that they r back together.. seth and summer are my fave characters in the oc although they r not as popular as marissa and ryan.poor zack! but he's such a sweet guy..really thoughtful and sensitive..he could qualify as a S.N.A.G! but juz too bad...so i'm also guessing that marissa and ryan would get back together.. eventually.

seth, summer and zack...this bring me to my next thought. in life, how many of us really get to be together wif the one we really loved? or izzit really more blissful to be wif the one who love u more? in this case, zack is really nice and if sum is wif him, she would be really pampered and taken care of by him, coz zack loves her more than she loves him. as for seth, like wat sum said in the show, seth had a more awesome relationship wif ryan as compared to the one he had wif her. if not, he wouldn't had left her in season 1 to sail in the pacific ocean. so..in a way, even though sum knew that seth probably doesn't like her as much as zack..or even as sum likes him, she still chose to go back him. the feeling and joy she shared wif seth is incomparable...and coz she can't lie to herself.
only we, ourselves know where true happiness is.

so for this, i'm really thankful that i have him. for his love and care, which brings me happiness and blissfulness...

Rouge a-hemmed @ 6:26 AM 0 rockers

*ouch*

attack of the ulcers!!! i have 2 ultra big ulcers on lower side lip and it's hurting like crazy!! can't enjoy my fave nissin tom yam cup noodle bcoz everytime i tried to drink the soup, the wound hurts. and when i tried to eat the noodles, i can't stop touching that side of the lip (wif the use of my tongue)!! and i am too lazy to use a spoon!! arrgghhhh!!!

it's 5am in the morning and i'm still up...and wat's new? doing fyp lor...surprisingly, i'm not sleepy, muz be due to the hot afternoon nap(not tat napping is hot, the weather was terribly hot!! and i'm surprised i could still nap under those severe conditions). these few days gonna be like a mad rush...coz we still have a lot of things undone. running of data not done, analysis of data not started, biblio not done, references not done...sighz..but i'm not as panicky as last week. probably coz i know that the 3 of us are gonna piah..and come out wif the first draft next mon. some of u might be shocked..sat hand up n mon first draft? actually, it's kinda first draft for the data and analysis part, the first part on all the theories we have already submitted it and tom we gonna hand in the 2nd draft after amendments. hope he won't ask us to add in more stuff..coz we gonna hit the word limit soon!! so far..we have close to 5000 words man!

alrite...the day is still young..gonna go back to my spss..tom's gonna be a better day :)

Rouge a-hemmed @ 5:10 AM 0 rockers