Tuesday, April 19, 2005

another bimbotic act..

ya..i know i dun exactly fulfill the criteria to be a bimbo..neither do i have the boobs or looks for it..but sometimes the silly side of me kinda got the better of me. and i can't find another word besides bimbotic to describe wat i have jzu done.

juz this morning, as i packed all my dirty laundry and prepared to wash them, i stood outside the laundry room for like 3 mins??!?!? pressing in different combinations trying to get the damn door to open! i mean how could i forget the code? it has only been 2 weeks! i guess my brain is too small to accomodate that 4 digit code, esp now wif the overwhelming info from aa306 & aa304. but still? how stupid can i get? i muz have look like a total idiot, standing outside the laundry room half awake, hair in a mess and looking totally helpless. thank goodness someone came out of the toilet and save my day!

in a week's time, i'll be sitting for my first paper. actually, i'm still considering should i go for it or not. u see..i took it as an extra ge module which was a bad choice. why was i acting so geeky then? now i'm debating wif myself if i should go for the paper or juz take an mc and report as absent. have this feeling that i'm gonna either fail it or get a D, which would kinda uglified my cert coz i haven't gotten any D before. sighz..but i have been slacking so much so that i've fallen one week behind my revision time table. real bad! and this devillish part of me kept asking me to take an mc and use the extra days to study for my 2 main core papers. but i dun wanna be a quitter. so wat if i get a D or fail? it's not gonna affect my grades coz it's an extra subject. the thing is..will i really make use of the extra few days to study? or will i juz waste them away?

where has the fighting spirit in me gone to? i remember when i was in jc, preparing for the A levels, i was so motivated and diligent. i went to sch everyday even though there were no more lessons, juz to study in the library or canteen. or i'll go alone to the cc to study. and the results were satisfying. i got the grades i wanted and to my utter surprise, even became the top arts student.

and now in uni, the last phase of my student life, here i am wasting my time away. sometimes i wonder, would it have been better if i didn't stay in hall? then probably i'll mix more wif my tut frenz..which could have make me more hardworking. ya, i shouldn't depend on others to feel inspired, but sometimes, that tiny winy bit of competition and seeing someone mug and mug, tends to grow on you, hence benefits you. of course, excessive competition is never good.

so much grumblings but i guess it's too late to think about those now. however, it's never too late to start studying now! i have to complete the daily target which i set for myself! gambette!!

Rouge a-hemmed @ 12:48 PM 0 rockers