Tuesday, July 11, 2006

be yourself, but only better

well well, i know the quote sounds cheesy but it sort of woke me up.

i was lost in some ulu pandan land for the past 1 month? feeling lethergic, lazy and the flab keeps multiplying! seriously, i dunno wat i was doing. my body has been behving weirdly ever since i recovered from that 'major' illness. it happened 3 weeks ago. was sick for like thurs to mon? it was gross. i vomitted, had fever, flue, cough, sore throat and severe headache. all rolled into one. guess i lost a bit of weight then. but ever since i recovered, i just didn't feel like moving, and i mean not exercising.

my body is taking longer to digest (which is not supposed to be the case coz i usually eat damn a lot) and i feel like farting and burping after every meal. hey, wat's wrong?

was checking out the gym website when i came across that quote. sigh..i realised a lot of things have been late and overdue.
1. a month since i last visited the gym
2. a month since i last run.and i thought someone (i.e. me) was aiming to join the AHM, New Bal and stan chart race
3. a month since i last read Rachel's Holiday. the book is great but i just dunnno why i stopped reading it
4. a month has passed and i'm still reading my july issue of FEMALE magazine! gosh, normally i'll finished up in a day
5. a month since i last went shopping and that is so so wrong!

these are the things tat i loved to do usually.
perhaps it's the world cup. mayb it's the lack of exercising. probably it's the lack of quality time for myself. and i'm beginning to think he is right. sometimes, i think i need a shell for me to crawl under and rediscover myelf once again. besides work, i need to find some aims, motivations to make my life more fulfilling. it doesn't matter wat kind of work i do, wat matters most is wat i do after that.

i thought i have some aims. but after blabbering about it in the blog, POOF! it was gone! stop blaming on the SHAPE RUN. i should be blaming myself for being late on registering. stop blaming on your illness. if i have taken care of myself properly, that is drink lotsa water, eat loads of food and have a heathly diet, i wouldn't be that ill. lastly, stop blaming about the thing being late.

one word. WEAK. i am so damn weak. mentally, physically and emotionally. something within me is amiss. i need to find it. mayb even snatch it back.

so step 1. i'm gonna go for a morning jog since i'm awake now. bye for now.

Rouge a-hemmed @ 4:58 AM 0 rockers