Thursday, October 27, 2005

as u can see, this entry is title-less coz it's gonna be really messy. my random thoughts..for the past few days. will be skipping here..and there..so dun go on unless u want a headache.

today, i forsaked my pump and bal class for my eye brows. went to pluck them. vain vain. i have been planning for a few nitez which classes to go since i'll be leaving for phuket on sat, hence missing the sat's bal and pump class. but ending the bal class at 9.50pm (if i have gone for it)juz doesn't seem very appealing to me. and becoz i could take a cab to bishan mrt, i found myself working to coslab.

well, i'm definitely going tom to paragon for the combat and bal class. tome to kick some ass. haha..haven't been to combat for a while. will be lost again..

am i getting too gym conscious? whenever i blog, i talked about my work out sessions. speaking about tat, i ran 8+km on sun! haha..wanted to run 7 but accidentally hit on the stop button when it was at 1+ km. so had to redo the entire run. but i felt good. a little seasoned now. haha..but still a bit worried if i can complete the entire 10km without walking. planning to d/l some of my all time fave songs so i can run along to the tunes. and if u see me running real slow, muz be eve, the apple of my eye.

threw a little tantrum at him on sun which resulted in me going to run late and subsequently arriving late at his place for dinner. decided to call him b4 i pack my bag. was a nice chat..but somewhere in the conversation, it juz made me feel that ..he didn't seem to me that he wanted me at his place. god knows why i thought that way..guess i was juz feeling neglected. as much as i tried to do my own things, live my own life, once in a while, i'll still feel sad, neglected and 'abandoned'. i know he's busy wif trainings, studies and tutions, but sometimes, i juz wish he has more time for me. to some, my endurance level is high, but it did not start off at that height. i was trained to that level. haha...thus, once in a while, i will indulge in self pity and shed a few tears for myself. is it worth it? yes. i definitely think it is. he's neither those romantic kind nor is he someone who whisper sweet nothings to me. precisely becoz he's not the typical kind, his rare stunts suprise and made me love him even more. acts like bringing me to nice resturants, writing sweet little cards and getting me gifts which i never ever expect him to get for me made the long, sometimes tiring journey worthwhile and meaningful.

until now, i still can't read him like a book. but it's okie. i like it this way. the beauty of it- it makes the relationship interesting and colourful. everytime we are together, i find out and understand more about him. there are juz so much to explore about each other. we share laughters and emotions which only ourselves know. even silence is endearing. perhaps that's why we r still together.

Rouge a-hemmed @ 12:01 AM 1 rockers