Saturday, April 23, 2005

devil at work..

had a battle wif my inner self again.
last afternoon, the thought of taking mc for mon's paper, advanced taxation, which happens to be my first paper for this exam, came back to bug me again =( this time, i even went to the examination website to check out the consequences if i am to report sick for it! one of my tut frenz is not going for the paper and that kinda tempt me even further.

i sat down, try to weigh the pros and cons and talked to a few frenz about it...one even said i'm behaving like a robot coz humans dun think that rationally!! haha..at that point of time, was quite determined not to go..then i can spend the next 2 days mugging for my 304 paper. yup, me intend to spend only 2 days studying for my tax paper which is a 4 au subject. i'm such a genius rite?

so i decided not to go for it...
then..the angel in me gave me a few tight slaps and finally woke me up from slumber land!! and i realised the real me do not want these thoughts to haunt me months or years down the road. "why are u a quitter??", "why did u give up halfway? that's not you!!" and most of all, i do not want to regret not going for the paper and moan about having that 3 alphabets ABS on my cert.

my frenz said i worried too much. coz after mon's paper, there are still 3 more days for me to prepare for my next paper. instead of me spending my time worrying and battling wif myself over this issue time and time again, why dun i juz spend them studying??!!??

precisely! and this time, i shut the devil out once again and never will he have the chance to tempt me. i'm soo going for the paper and i'm not gonna change my mind again. i will be prepared for it, and will not regret my choice!

daily plan:
bedtime-4am
wakey wakey: 8am
my new plan is to sleep only 4 hours a day!! and shit!! I JUZ OVERSLEPT BY 2 HOURS! hahahaha...but i guess having 6 hours of sleep is a good start afterall...i used to sleep 8-9 hours! heh

Rouge a-hemmed @ 10:24 AM 0 rockers