Thursday, January 20, 2005

a good run but..

PUKED!! *yucks* could still taste the duck rice in my mouth. but it was surely a good run...so close..jzu a few more steps and i would have reach the car park. alas! have to puke at the shuttle bus stop...well, at least i know the aim of the next run is to run at this pace and finish it wif a bang! and of course, dun eat too much for dinner..and sleep rite after that.

was pissed off by ****. guess she juz asked the wrong things at the wrong time. i juz woke up..was preparing to go for the run but von msged me to tell me that the thomson data got some prob, and at the same time, she also msg me at the same time to ask me about some grant stuff. all these resulted in the run being delayed, hence, started the run on a bad note. the mood could have been the cause of my puking.

maybe if she had asked me the same thing on another time, i wouldn't feel so pissed about it. u know, more patience in answering her queries. was i like her during this point of time last year??? jzu felt that she should have know more stuff than this. certain things dun have to ask, she should have known them by now. and certain stuff b4 asking, she has to think it thru first b4 asking. perhaps i'm in a foul mood..perhaps i'm biased..perhaps i juz love hall too much..so much that i feel angry, sad and disappointed at the way it is now. izzit becoz my batch didn't do enuff? izzit becoz we didn't set a higher standard?? izzit becoz we didn't hand down stuff properly or help them enuff??? but i know for sure i have certainly done my best during my term, that was the best of my ability at that point of time, wif all those circumstances and responsibilities. rite now, perhaps i should jzu learn how to let go...and grow a stone heart...

Rouge a-hemmed @ 2:58 AM 0 rockers